.... it's easy to loose connections .... how do things 'hold together' anyway ?... finished reading the book by Clarissa Pinkola Estes 'Women who run with the Wolves - Contacting the Power of the Wild Woman' ..... this is about loosing connection within our own selves ... and yes - it was just right time to read this book and open eyes to all lost connections and possibilities lost .... I often wonder about the words Bible has Jesus say ... like : .... follow me and let the Dead bury their dead .... or ..... should your arm cause you to sin - cut it away - for it is better for you to enter the Kingdom without your arms then not enter it ..... (this is just loosely in my own words) ....
... when we speak about sin - we do not really mean RIGHT/WRONG according to the current moral code ... for this moral code of the current day can be very 'wrong' indeed (I grew up during the communist regime after all) ..... just pretending to be 'right' ..... and so when we speak about 'sin' we speak about that which separates us from or in other words - makes us loose the connection to god who is love .... and so being preoccupied with something - anything (even that which is considered very good and 'right' by present day's set of believes ... ) which takes us away from god who is love - means to 'sin' .... how do I keep away from 'sin' then? ...does it mean i have to be every day at mas ? ... or does it mean i have to be a charity worker ? ... no .. again ...even these obviously 'good' deeds do not mean that I am with god ..... they can be my sins too ... and so it is often almost nonsensical how one keeps connection with god ..... seemingly as nonsensical as cutting own arm off ...... well ....that's why this most beautiful movie http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/A_Very_Long_Engagement always comes to my mind again and again ..... not only because if I could change who I am i would love to be Audrey Tautou as she is in all the movies with her (did not see the Da Vinci Code, though- so I do not count that one).... but because it shows this almost insane determination to follow ones heart ... not for the sake of own satisfaction but for the sake of this being the only meaning one has in order to live ... live without loosing the connection ..... oh well ....well ..well
