Peeling off Layers

... ha ! ... what an event ! ... I bought myself a new easel today .... yesterday - painting the icon for Joy - made me convinced that I need it after all ..... now I almost feel like an artist .... LOL ... both children were home today morning and they lovingly helped me to assemble it .... how nice .. I became sentimental and started saying that who ever picks up painting later on - will inherit this one (easel) ......

..got together an album (right side bar - czech - spring 2009) with photos from Easter trip to Czech ..... so precious time it had been .. .... time of very strong emotions .. memories .. re- thinking ... healing .. and now ... missing my friends like never before ...

... I am not paying much attention to my plants these days ... they still flower so nicely ... ... so this is my second Spring this year :) HOW ENJOYABLE !!!!

... there are many drawings I need to do for this painting to be able to piece it together at last ... .. just starting ... thinking what might happened with the lost one - first one ... how strange .... obsessions ...
..does not really touch me ... I just want to keep on track ... the rest is of no importance really .... went wrong so many times ....

8: The voice of my beloved! behold, he cometh leaping upon the mountains, skipping upon the hills.
9: My beloved is like a roe or a young hart: behold, he standeth behind our wall, he looketh forth at the windows, shewing himself through the lattice.
10: My beloved spake, and said unto me, Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.
11: For, lo, the winter is past, the rain is over and gone;
12: The flowers appear on the earth; the time of the singing of birds is come, and the voice of the turtle is heard in our land;

... my most favourite part of the Holy Bible is Song of Songs .... and I think the same it was for st. John of the Cross .... how beautiful to think that this theme bridges centuries ..... I have been exploring more into this theme again ... planning to paint it again - this time in much more 'daring' way .....

... second take on the same theme .... and how much this painting resonates with the text below - taken from John O'Donohue ... amazes me .... these are things that make me happy .... pieces of a puzzle falling together ...

... from the book I read and re-read for some time now ....

.. my son likes to take photos ... and this one he took recently ... it was in colour (which was just a little bit gentler) ... but he made it into a black and white image .... that's how he sees me - his mother .... himself being young and feeling successful at this moment - he does not worry about how this portrayal makes me feel ...... makes me freak out .... and then .... slowly I make myself to face this ... how many times before have I been refusing to face the reality about myself .... so many times .... it's never easy I suppose ...

... morning walk and capturing the moment of the sun just popping up on the horizon .... deep breaths ... no one around .... dog running free ..... how glorious ..... thinking my thoughts uninterrupted ..... free .... happy in the moment ....... morning walk ......